Chasing Experiences

To the one I haven’t met yet-

Sometimes I wonder if you think of me the way I think of you. Do you ask
yourself why our paths have not crossed yet? Or what kind of person I am? Do
you know I’m here waiting to meet you too?

I’m not sure why we have to wait but I am doing everything to make sure I’m
ready for you. Past heartaches and pain require time to heal, you see. I’m
learning how to love myself so that I can live a long and happy life with you.
I want our relationship to be a healthy one with love, trust and devotion. I am
shaking off the experiences with the previous men in my life. They were just
getting me prepared for you. They taught me what love is not and I look forward to you showing me what love is.

When you realize how high my walls are, will you be patient and help me break
them down to let you in? Will you pick up on the signs that I am feeling
insecure and reassure me because you know I’ve been betrayed in the past? I
imagine you will do all that and more.

I have certainly been tempted to settle. Being single is not always easy. I
often miss having someone in my life who cares that my car oil should have been
changed three months or three thousand miles ago. There are nights I am very
aware of the empty cold space next to me in bed and sometimes I wish I had
someone to vent to about my bad day. Loneliness has become a well-known
acquaintance. But I don’t mind. I am patient because I will not settle for
anyone but you.

I will wait for as long as I need to. In the meantime, I will be chasing all
of the experiences that make me happy as an individual so that I can be happy
with you. I want my newly found self-worth and happiness to make my walls so
brittle that you don’t have to work as hard to get through.

My soul senses that its mate is out there, somewhere.

We haven’t met yet but one day our lives will collide. When they finally do,
you will be the stranger I recognize. The stranger I know.